argument... HEAD FOR THE HILLS!
why is it that i always back down from conflicts?
well not always..
sometimes i am the diplomat... that's when i'm not really into the argument or i don't see the point or i'm not directly involved or affected.. in which case i take the Good-But-Often-Annoying stand of trying to soothe things over.. or ignoring it because of its triviality..
then there are the fights where i can actually feel my blood starting to boil (often resulting in annoying but unstoppable emotional tears) and my hands start shaking.. and then two things can happen.
one, i start shouting and trying to enforce what i think is right and get my point across.. and become even more pissed when i'm not heard..
or two, i am so angry and so overwhelmingly upset that i become cold and withdrawn and don't speak much because, hey, no one's listening anyway.
yeah, that's not a great stand to take..
then there are the times when i KNOW i'm wrong but don't have the words to explain it and express how sorry i am... when "i didn't mean it" starts sounding stale due to its repetition.. and when the truth just starts sounding lame even though i'm being honest about it... basically leaving me with nothing to say.. yeah, that's the worst of all.
people say that the closer you are, the more you fight.. wonder how true that is sometimes.. people also say that fighting breaks the monotony in a friendship because only when you're in a fight with someone, you actually know them.
which is a kinda scary thought come to think of it..
but what the hell... as long as things are okay in the end...
they are, right?
well not always..
sometimes i am the diplomat... that's when i'm not really into the argument or i don't see the point or i'm not directly involved or affected.. in which case i take the Good-But-Often-Annoying stand of trying to soothe things over.. or ignoring it because of its triviality..
then there are the fights where i can actually feel my blood starting to boil (often resulting in annoying but unstoppable emotional tears) and my hands start shaking.. and then two things can happen.
one, i start shouting and trying to enforce what i think is right and get my point across.. and become even more pissed when i'm not heard..
or two, i am so angry and so overwhelmingly upset that i become cold and withdrawn and don't speak much because, hey, no one's listening anyway.
yeah, that's not a great stand to take..
then there are the times when i KNOW i'm wrong but don't have the words to explain it and express how sorry i am... when "i didn't mean it" starts sounding stale due to its repetition.. and when the truth just starts sounding lame even though i'm being honest about it... basically leaving me with nothing to say.. yeah, that's the worst of all.
people say that the closer you are, the more you fight.. wonder how true that is sometimes.. people also say that fighting breaks the monotony in a friendship because only when you're in a fight with someone, you actually know them.
which is a kinda scary thought come to think of it..
but what the hell... as long as things are okay in the end...
they are, right?
scribbled by astrodominie at 9:53 am
2 Comments:
i just came across ur article(of course i dont have work), its a nice posting.. actually expressing what you are, previously i too was same. but i started gradually changing. rules i followed are. SMILE a LOT, Be Happy with what you are or what you have . Dont Talk when you can NOD, like this many more.. this helps me in changing process..try it out
one things sure babez...fighting certainly makes u know the other person better....it does ..
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