enough?
what does that mean anyway?
when i was younger, i always used to start off essays, debates and speeches with a dictionary definition.
"Enough. The Oxford Dictionary defines enough to refer to 'adequacy; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire'."
but is it ever enough?
i'm not good at philosophy. maybe i haven't read enough or absorbed enough, but i'm unable to get onto a metaphysical or spiritual plane and break things down into their simplest form, into something so vague and intangible that it sounds right.
when you start out with something.. you tell yourself.. that if you get this much.. or achieve so much.. then that's all you want, all you need.. and you'll be content..
that's how everything begins. then you can't have enough, or you start wanting to move to something better, something bigger, and you're unhappy and miserable and confused, because you feel you should be happy though you're not.
that's certainly convoluted.
will i ever reach a stage in my life.. where i can truly, honestly, sincerely say.. i am happy. i don't want anything more, i don't require anything else, because where i am today is my happiness.
i wish i could. i'm sure a lot of us do.
sometimes i just feel so full of beauty and love and life that i can't stop smiling.. that i play the loudest happiest music i can find on my computer and sing along and my voice actually sounds good even to my own critical ears.. and i want to tell everyone how happy i am, and i hug myself and think that things can't get better than this.
it's funny isn't it.. how long it takes to build happiness, yet how quickly it can be destroyed..
brings you back to my "what is enough" concept i guess..
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today
when i was younger, i always used to start off essays, debates and speeches with a dictionary definition.
"Enough. The Oxford Dictionary defines enough to refer to 'adequacy; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire'."
but is it ever enough?
i'm not good at philosophy. maybe i haven't read enough or absorbed enough, but i'm unable to get onto a metaphysical or spiritual plane and break things down into their simplest form, into something so vague and intangible that it sounds right.
when you start out with something.. you tell yourself.. that if you get this much.. or achieve so much.. then that's all you want, all you need.. and you'll be content..
that's how everything begins. then you can't have enough, or you start wanting to move to something better, something bigger, and you're unhappy and miserable and confused, because you feel you should be happy though you're not.
that's certainly convoluted.
will i ever reach a stage in my life.. where i can truly, honestly, sincerely say.. i am happy. i don't want anything more, i don't require anything else, because where i am today is my happiness.
i wish i could. i'm sure a lot of us do.
sometimes i just feel so full of beauty and love and life that i can't stop smiling.. that i play the loudest happiest music i can find on my computer and sing along and my voice actually sounds good even to my own critical ears.. and i want to tell everyone how happy i am, and i hug myself and think that things can't get better than this.
it's funny isn't it.. how long it takes to build happiness, yet how quickly it can be destroyed..
brings you back to my "what is enough" concept i guess..
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today
scribbled by astrodominie at 11:01 pm
4 Comments:
What is not enough is the amount you've been blogging. Reveal a little more, let us in.
It's such a relief to find such a refreshingly cheerful page. Pink, it's my fav colour too :)
thank you, anonymous!
ah this is SO awesome...I totally understand...It's a bit frightening though, the thought that you're always going to be wanting...always...but that's human nature I guess...we're never really satisfied!
hey ash, thanks for commenting! yeah, the only consolation that we have is that at least it's normal! :p
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