the final awakening?

This is the end, beautiful friend
This is the end, my only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes
Again

now my previous post was about love... it may seem slightly off that my next one is about death...

i don't know whether it comes across as unduely morbid... but i think a lot of people do think about death. personally, i never dwell upon the dying aspect of it when i do get into that mood [which thankfully isn't too often]. it's not about the passing over, it's about what remains once you've...well, once you've gone, basically.

a void waiting to be filled? how long will it take for someone else to step into your shoes? for there to be "someone else" to the people you love most. of course, at this point the people you love most reassure you that there can't be any existence without you and so on, but the fear always remains. that ultimately, a few years down the line, the world is still moving on - without you! continuity is one of mankind's chief characteristics after all...

but then again... why worry now? sure, we're all going to die sometime.. it's inevitable, deal with it. but what you've got is NOW. i always worry about the future... worry that things won't work out, that i'll fail in things i do, that i'll lose, that things i love the most will change....

hey but then the optimist in me takes over.. there are these awesome lines by Mark Twain :

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

good night...